Sunday, May 13, 2012


I love celebrating mother's day because I love being YOUR mother.  This year has been a little more difficult as I am trying to recover from surgery that I had a few days ago, so mostly I've been laying low.  But that hasn't stopped the celebrating in my heart.  I've thought so much about you Ben, just like I do every day.  And because I couldn't physically be down at your grave, my parents came to the rescue.  My mom received this red rose at church today in honor of mother's day but felt like YOU deserved it and so she left it with you.  How SWEET! :)  I love thoughtful gestures like that.  It makes my world go round.
I love being a mother.  I love being YOUR mother.  How grateful I am for 8 wonderful years of taking care of you, of nurturing you and smothering you with love.  Thank you for allowing me that sacred privilege, Ben. 

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


Today I got THIS surprise email in my inbox:

This afternoon mom and I went to Ben's grave and put a special marker on it.  Hope you like it.  It is made of a cement composite and weighs over 100 lbs.  I made a cement base for it and still have to spray it with a water sealant to protect it from the elements over time.  
I got the idea while driving by this place in Westborough that sells things like this and ordered it out of a catalog.  It is a birthday gift for  you and Steve.  Mom thinks it is smiling and being happy and I think it is crying and being sad.  
Love you

I am so grateful for loving and thoughtful parents.  
I LOVE it.  
My heart is smiling.  My eyes are leaking.  My soul is joyful.

Thanks mom and's PERFECT!