Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for YOU!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008


...atleast that's what he'd say if he could speak.
Peace out...

Thursday, November 20, 2008

We're FREE!

We just spoke with Dr. Filiano. He's getting rid of the ambien all together and sticking with his clonidine for now. He hates for us to be here another night. We might give it another go in a few weeks, but for now I need to go home because I have sick children waiting for me. Guess the night bonding between Ben and I will continue...that's a good thing, right? :)

Another Night

Another night gone...not a lot of improvement from the first night.
Ben's blood pressure continued to be 70/30 throughout the night.
we had to tip his bed towards his head again,
gave him many IV boluses,
held his feeds,
lots of neb treatments to stimulate
and more oxygen to get him through the night.
Not sure what today will bring.
We're waiting for Dr. Filiano to arrive.
Here is the VERY protected IV
that is extremely important to this stay.
It took them 20 attempts
to finally get this one.
I've seen the battle wounds all over his body.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

NOW he sleeps...

The Stink Eye!

Dr. Filiano just came in and informed us that we'll be stayin' another night - FANTASTIC! Cuz really, one night is just not long enough. The food, the cot, the lack of sleep - LOVE IT! Can't get enought of it. :) The picture above speaks clearly of what Ben thinks about that idea...he's giving Dr. Filiano the 'stink eye'!

Through the Night...

If I could sum up our nights sleep in one word, it would be
This is how Ben started the night, around 11pm.
But THIS is what he looked like MOST of the night.

This is Ben's bed, it was tipped down towards his head ALL night. Why? Because his blood pressure was TOO low. 70/30 to be exact. It sent the nurses in a bit of a panic. They stopped his feeds because he was practically on his head with his bed tipped and started him on IV hydration instead. Dr. Filiano had them give him 'recimic epi', a type of nebulizer treatment because it's sort of like a caffine jolt. Makes your heart rate increase. It worked...slightly. Got his blood pressure up to 80/40. Still pretty low. Then they would turn the light on and talk and rub him awake. That would start the coughing, which means that I would end up suctioning him. When I would finally lull him back to sleep, the process started all over again. Now I'm waiting to hear from the doctor's. I'm curious to see if they are going to let us go home. I'll update as soon as I know.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


(one unhappy boy...)
Ben's being naughty tonight. He's needing oxygen. Could have something to do with the brewing cold that he has combined with some anesthesia. Not a good combination for this child. They came up tonight to take an x-ray. Hopefully he's not growing an infection.


Ben came out of surgery just fine. Found out it took over an hour to get an IV into him. UGH! (that's what took so long) He's a hard stick, very stubborn about giving up his veins. Atleast he was under and didn't feel it. After the dr. took a good look at his bladder area, he decided that Ben can continue to be cathed at night. We are now up on the floor waiting for night to fall upon us. I won't know until morning whether or not the meds were a success. Thanks for checking in...

More Surgery...

Today Ben and I are at Dartmouth. He's getting his bladder. Don't be jealous. His bladder will ALWAYS look younger than YOURS! :) He's in surgery right now, it seems to be taking longer than I anticipated. Ben won't be needing his foley cathetar after today. They'll give him one for overnight just because of swelling, but after that he'll just leak into his diaper. After the procedure he'll be admitted so that Dr. Filiano can try him on a new medicine to help with his sleeping. Keep your fingers and toes crossed that all goes well and that he will respond to the medicine in a positive way.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Dr. Filiano

This is Ben's Neurologist. His name is Dr. Filiano. He's world renowned. We LOVE him. He's been with Ben since the beginning. He is the "go to guy" when it comes to Ben's complicated issues and we are so grateful to him for that. He has a GREAT sense of humor. He makes us laugh...often. Dr. Filiano also attends in the PICU where Ben is often admitted. It's nice having his doctor there when we need him most. We stopped by to see him yesterday at DHMC. We were in the neighborhood and needed some help with some sleeping issues that Ben is having. He spent 45 minutes with us and numerous phone calls later we're hoping that Ben will be sleeping better.
Ben's making sure Dr. Filiano isn't giving him the "bunny ears"
While visiting with him yesterday he noticed how light Ben's hair looked. He couldn't stop looking at it through the appointment. Come to find out he thinks Ben is depleted in "something", possibly selenium. He snipped a sample and sent it off to the lab. Who would've thought???

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

My Monkey

I missed my monkey. We were apart for 6 days while I had surgery. Way too long. Good thing he was in excellent hands. I didn't worry about him. I just missed him terribly. Today I got him back. We sat and rocked for hours. My laundry didn't get folded, my floors didn't get swept, and dinner was late getting to the table. I didn't mind though because I got to sit and hold my Benjamin. Life was perfect for a couple of hours.


Monday, November 3, 2008


This is my pumpkin. He was in a different patch this year for Halloween. My friend Becky B. had him while I was recovering from surgery. He got to walk in a parade with all the other little Halloweeners. Can't you tell he's thrilled? First year as a pumpkin.