Dearest Benjamin, I miss you when you are not here. Last night you slept over at B's house. She's like your second mom and takes such great care of you. Last night was especially lonely. I didn't sleep well at all. My room was too quiet without you here. I missed the sound of your humidification running. I missed seeing the lights and hearing the alarms from your pulse oximeter. I missed listening to the humming of your feeding pump as it runs through the night. I missed the occasional suctioning that you so often need. I missed the chance to visit with you in the quiet hours of the night. I just plain missed you. Today you are home. My day is better because you are in it. Tonight I may not get a lot of sleep knowing that you will have needs to fill, but I know I'll sleep better knowing you are here. I love you Benjamin!