My heart is so sad tonight. I don't look at Ben's blog too often anymore because it's so, so hard. But when I have a quiet minute and am missing him terribly, I sit and look. And then I cry. And then I sob. I cry so hard I can't breathe. And then my husband walks in the door. Thank goodness. He put his arms around me as we sit together and look...and then we both cry. Oh the pain. This picture makes my arms ache and my heart hurt, but I'm really grateful I have it because looking at it reminds me of how I used to feel while holding Ben. Look how peaceful we are. I miss that boy.