Saturday, July 10, 2010

MISSING HIM...

I know without a doubt that Ben wasn't ready to leave me.  His body was just too tired.  I know he would have chosen to stay with his family if he had that choice.  But he didn't, and neither did we.  So life continues on without him and it's hard.  My heart is heavy every single minute of every single day because it's missing him.  But I am so thankful I have so many pictures to look at every day.  I love looking at his big blue eyes, his kissable cheeks, the fluffy head of hair and his long, flirty eyelashes.  How I miss that boy.

15 comments:

The Kings said...

What a beautiful boy he was and still is. He holds his mouth just like Noah does too. I want to give those lips a big kiss. Love to you. xxx

Junior said...

such a sweet face, lots of love and hugs.

The VW's said...

Ben definitely had THE BEST eyes and eyelashes EVER!!!!!

I can only imagine how difficult it must be to go through living without your sweet boy!!!

My Momma heart aches for you! Love, Hugs and Prayers!!!

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

Nothing but (((hugs))) and (((love))) Becky ....

Anonymous said...

And aren't you so grateful for pictures? I was watching a movie, Amish Grace, about the Amish school shooting (a great movie about forgiveness, by the way) and one mother mentioned how she had not one picture of her daughter because of what they believe. How that struck me.... I heard about your blog through a friend and keep you in our prayers....

Jenny said...

me too.

Lacey said...

My sweet Ben! Continued prayers for your family!

LL said...

His memories (and photos) are your treasures!
I continue to pray for your heavy heart.
Love you!!!!

April said...

Oh I wish I could ease the heaviness of your heart... those pictures are so sweet.

Amy M. said...

Becky, the tears are coming quickly as I read your precious words and see pictures of Ben smiling in pictures below. My heart and prayers go out to you knowing how much your heart aches daily to hold him and be with him. The thought of losing a child brings tears to the thought. Love you Becky!

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shirlgirl said...

Precious child who certainly left his imprint on all of us. Glad you have so many wonderful pictures and memories of your sweet boy. Lots of love coming your way.

TMI Tara said...

I think he is with your family more than you could ever imagine. I'm sorry you're missing him, and hope you find comfort in those darkest moments. Thinking of you often. Love you!

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jaidyns said...

I sat here crying my eyes out because we have a special little man named Jaidyn...we live everyday with the fact that at any given moment, things can change. We cherish every moment whether happy or sad. My heart breaks for you and your loss. Our little Jaidyn has those flirty eye lashes too! Our prayers are with you and your family.
Pls visit our website at www.jaidynscall.com to see little jaidyn.
Love in Georgia
Debra Perry-Ree