I know without a doubt that Ben wasn't ready to leave me. His body was just too tired. I know he would have chosen to stay with his family if he had that choice. But he didn't, and neither did we. So life continues on without him and it's hard. My heart is heavy every single minute of every single day because it's missing him. But I am so thankful I have so many pictures to look at every day. I love looking at his big blue eyes, his kissable cheeks, the fluffy head of hair and his long, flirty eyelashes. How I miss that boy.