Today has been a tender day. It's father's day and I have been up since 3am because I have been thinking about how we are celebrating our first father's day without Ben. I am sad that we can't share this day with ALL of Steve's children. We miss Ben. I know Steve misses being able to tease Ben. Every night as we were heading to bed, he would pick Ben up over his shoulder and tease him about his weight. Then he would sometimes dance with him and make his whole body jiggle. Sometimes he would teasingly scold him for keeping us up in the night. Whatever interaction Steve had with his cute boy was always done out of love. And I know Ben knew that.