Today I drove up to DHMC to take care of some physical forms for Kaleb. While I was there I dropped by the PICU for a visit. It was so hard being there without Ben. I know most people associate bad things and suffering with a PICU, but we didn't. It was always a positive experience for us and we love the people there. I felt fortunate that there wasn't a lot of suffering involved with Ben. He just needed the occasional tune-up and extra maintenance before returning back home. So you see, it was not a bad place for him to be. I never liked it when he was sick, but I was always confident that they would take such loving care of him and they always did. The tears flowed today when I entered the unit. I stayed for a little while, visiting with different nurses, doctors, NP's and tech's. I'm glad I did. They were such a huge part of his life.